Purple Giraffe

I haven’t been posting. I haven’t been inspired.  I’m going through a bit of a cynicism cycle.  Hey – it happens – even to the most hardcore romantic.  I started this idea because I was determined to see the vision through (wait … I said “was”…change that to “am”).  I figured, if I can conceive Read More…

Am I The Only One?

Can it be possible that the whole idea of Love has been diluted – to the point that…outside of lyrics, poetry, novels and movies…it no longer exists as something to be attained, but rather something of fantasy?  What are y’all doing out there playing this game if not acting from Romantic, Passionate, OnceInALifetime Love? I ask Read More…

Completely Incomplete or Incompletely Complete

You know – at times I quite like myself.  I’ve done the work (although always a Work In Progress).  I’ve addressed spiritual & metaphysical for personal growth, I’ve taken care of body and skin and hair for personal grooming, I’ve tread between thinking that I’m self-reflective and thinking that I’m self-centered.  I challenge and I Read More…

About Lonely

So – repeat of my point here – I’ve dedicated myself to the search for True Love.  It’s glorious and frustrating and provides a sort of third rail beam of energy to guide me while I’m waiting (and experimenting).  Meanwhile, I miss the actual being in it – when something becomes a bit of a focus, it sort of Read More…

The Tide of Two

When I fall in Love, it seems the easiest and most natural thing in the world.  It’s delightful.  I glow.  Yadda Yadda Yadda.  What about when it’s hard?   How many times have I wondered if this was a good time to just run, and keep running.  Back to the comforts and solitary pleasures that I have Read More…

Real is The Game

I will throw myself with great passion and drama into a relationship – with one man at a time.  They are good men – all with something special that I can readily see.  But at the center of the maelstrom is a very quiet and anciently patient pulse that is waiting…waiting to see if there Read More…

Dear World: Just because I have persistently chosen to believe in Love does not make me weak. Don’t make that mistake – or I’ll have your balls. Sincerely, me.

Sad Sad Superman

You can’t always rely on Superman. Sometimes he’s stuck by the side of the road, with a broke down beater car having a cigarette while waiting for a tow truck. And his leotard is saggy.

Longing

Someone I was intimate with has written me a letter, and in it he referenced some of what he thinks my problems are, including this: ” an extreme amount of longing that is very difficult to bear sometimes.”  Well, naturally I had to think about all that and here’s where I’m at:   I actually kinda like it.  Read More…

Love is Heavier than Air

 Swept off my feet.  Over the moon.  On cloud nine.  Walking on air.  All wonderful expressions of falling in love, all ways that I personally have felt.  But here is what comes next – all of these phrases are about being disconnected from earth … from having our feet on the ground.  And for me, Read More…

Love in the Time of Chaos

In this space, I’ve been sharing my thoughts on Love and True Love and What I Want (versus need) in a Man.  This has led to an increase in conversations with other ladies (and sometimes a gentleman or two), but the conversation has actually been going on for some time now and the theme remains Read More…

Rededication

 I rededicate myself to the whole reason I started these “love notes”.   I’m going back and rereading them.  I had a reason for writing them, but for awhile I got distracted and I stopped.  Maybe because I fell in love with the love that made me start writing them in the first place.  Now, I Read More…

Only Love Can Break Your Heart

Lately I’ve been thinking that, contrary to songs and poems and stories, your heart breaks first. That’s how all the love is released, that’s what floods your body and soul with all that warmth and wanting. As soon as you actually meet someone that may very well be the love you’ve been waiting for, your Read More…

Want A Man, Need A Man

Want A Man: He is … A gentleman, a scoundrel, a home-partner and fellow traveler. Confident but not arrogant, Funny, Intelligent, Sexy, Spirited and Spiritual, Ready for Emotional Commitment, Hopefully in a similar place in their life as mine, Monogamous, Open minded, Perceptive, Kind, Romantic. Capable of living life to the fullest and yet also Read More…

The Love Spring

For some of us, Love is like a spring, tightly coiled inside us. Sister, perhaps, to the phrase Hope Springs Eternal. We have more than the desire to Love, we have the need. The search for one to receive is our purpose. We want to give, to care, to express, and yes – to receive Read More…