Real is The Game

I will throw myself with great passion and drama into a relationship – with one man at a time.  They are good men – all with something special that I can readily see.  But at the center of the maelstrom is a very quiet and anciently patient pulse that is waiting…waiting to see if there Read More…

The Tide of Two

When I fall in Love, it seems the easiest and most natural thing in the world.  It’s delightful.  I glow.  Yadda Yadda Yadda.  What about when it’s hard?   How many times have I wondered if this was a good time to just run, and keep running.  Back to the comforts and solitary pleasures that I have Read More…

About Lonely

So – repeat of my point here – I’ve dedicated myself to the search for True Love.  It’s glorious and frustrating and provides a sort of third rail beam of energy to guide me while I’m waiting (and experimenting).  Meanwhile, I miss the actual being in it – when something becomes a bit of a focus, it sort of Read More…

Completely Incomplete or Incompletely Complete

You know – at times I quite like myself.  I’ve done the work (although always a Work In Progress).  I’ve addressed spiritual & metaphysical for personal growth, I’ve taken care of body and skin and hair for personal grooming, I’ve tread between thinking that I’m self-reflective and thinking that I’m self-centered.  I challenge and I Read More…

Am I The Only One?

Can it be possible that the whole idea of Love has been diluted – to the point that…outside of lyrics, poetry, novels and movies…it no longer exists as something to be attained, but rather something of fantasy?  What are y’all doing out there playing this game if not acting from Romantic, Passionate, OnceInALifetime Love? I ask Read More…

Purple Giraffe

I haven’t been posting. I haven’t been inspired.  I’m going through a bit of a cynicism cycle.  Hey – it happens – even to the most hardcore romantic.  I started this idea because I was determined to see the vision through (wait … I said “was”…change that to “am”).  I figured, if I can conceive Read More…

The Cinderella Pill

Well … you almost got me … again.  I was feeling so sad and sour, depressed and fragile, ready to just give up.  Give up the exercises, give up the hair appointments, give up the clothes, the diets,  the Trying.  The constant worrying about what I did to deserve this, what could I have done Read More…

The Fool Threat

Right.  So I’m Online Dating (OD). In the course of which, I find myself writing notes and emails of varying depths of intimacy while attempting to both seduce and deduce the person on the other side.  Recently, I’ve been introduced to a new breed (believe me, I’m sure the basic OD personalities have been dissected Read More…

3 … 2 … 1 … None

In the course of the last three years or so, I’ve been in love with three very different men.  One lasted for 2 years.  One lasted for 6 months.  And the last one lasted for one day. The two year relationship was with a lovely, gentle, smart, sweet, sane, stable man.  Funny and communicative and Read More…

Bring On The Love Wolf!

How many stories about tragic love do we celebrate?  Iconic, timeless stories  by acclaimed authors. Countless poets & lyricists of great fame – both ancient and modern.  Even personal stories of lost friends or family members.   Plug in “suicide for love” into Google and you get numerous hits for poems, songs, videos, movies, plays,  support Read More…

Love to Love

Sometimes you have to love before you fall in love.  Love is not always complete at that first rush.  Love is not always the end answer … it’s just the beginning – no matter how long you’ve been in love, building up to it, giving in to it, realizing it, or by golly even telling Read More…